Motivation

After a stressful day of work, killing it at the gym, and baking goods for the cute boy to take to his friends these are the kind of texts that keep me going, thank you baby!!

Lucky girl

Last night as I was trying to decide if it was worth blow drying my hair or not and my bathroom door opens and Terry had the biggest smile on his face! I was shocked to see him (he told me he was home helping his mom), and he had dinner in his hands. We talked for hours (until 5 this morning) and neither one of us wanted to sleep because we were enjoying our talks. Baby thank you soooooo much for putting up with me. I cried in his arms, and he made sure to pull me close, and kiss me on the forehead telling me everything will be okay. I got so lucky with this one, I don't know what I did to deserve him, but he's truly my best friend!!!

Good times

Weekends are ALWAYS full of entertainment! Friday I was sick but I had the best cuddle bug to take care of me! I'm back on "Words" and FINALLY convinced this one to get it! Made my whole night!

Friday night I convinced Tan Man to come out with us as we headed to dinner and a party!

Who knew it would take so many tries to get a decent picture

Seriously, we couldn't stop slipping, or laughing!

The three of us were openly hated at the party and we couldn't get over it!

Yeah I turned out being the fifth wheel...

This is my reaction to haters...hate on because I am loving the life I live!

The boys were entertaining themselves

After Friday night I couldn't believe people and their lack of manners. We got drinks and snowballs thrown at us at the party. It didn't take long for us to leave, but the best part was none of us were even mad. We all realized what a great life we have and enjoy the company of others that we just left and continued to have our own fun. I HATE BULLIES. Just because you are not happy does not mean you tear people down and make them unhappy.

This stud was supposed to meet up with us on Friday but his flight was delayed, therefore he drove thru the terrible snow storm Sunday to come see me! Made my day!

Sunday night was at our house and we LOVED just having our closest friends there!

Love my crazies! Tyrone was being a gentleman and picking up Michelle from work so they missed all our pictures.

I love this Ginger!

Oh this will always be a night to remember

SOOOOO happy he is quitting his job so he can stay in SLC!

Blessed

I have been counting my blessings lately...he is one of my biggest ones. Our phone calls are usually quite entertaining but this one was a different one...

It was a phone call where both of us realized how blessed we both are, and that there are angels watching over him (my mom is our favorite one). So glad you are okay!!!!

PERF!!!!!

Now I have great weekends frequently but little did I know that this was about to be my favorite one so far. When Terry had called he asked if we could go grab food, I of course am not eating much but agreed and then offered to make him something. He wouldn't let me but little did he know I was already starting his favorite dish! He got there right as I put it in the oven, and the smile on his face made my day. He LOVES my enchiladas, so as they were cooking he unloaded the rest of my car and we put in my favorite movie, Fast Five! Our movie ended and he asked "Why is Tyrone not home yet!" We called him and the bromance had the following conversation: "What up bro?" "Oh just laying in bed, watching The Amazing Spiderman" "Nice, nice guess you don't want to come over then?" "Oh you're there?" "Yeah bro, she's back home!" "Pre-heat the oven to 400 I'm on my way" "I'll unlock the door" Michelle and I were laughing so hard, I asked Terry if he knew why we were pre-heating the oven and Wednesday night Tyrone had made the dough for cinnamon rolls but Terry told him to wait until we got back home to make them so he could eat them. I seriously LOVE these two! So we ate, talked, and ate and talked into the early hours of Friday morning! Friday morning Terry and I were in and out ALL day. Our favorite days though are just cuddling, talking, and of course eating! I made him and Tyrone chicken quisadillas (they were in heaven) and we played Jenga for hours! I had dinner plans with friends and he had a birthday party so we eventually parted ways! Although I can't eat much, my dinner with my friends was amazing! I loved the many phone calls from him, watching the boys stuff their faces, and girl talk with the roomies! We came back to our house and played Jenga, did a little karaoeke, and made brownies, YUM! I was pretty happy just about the last 24 hours and then Terry text me "Hey baby how was the rest of your night?" "It was good, thanks how's the party?" Then I get a phone call..."Baby this party blows, all I want is to be with you" "What?! I'm sure you are having some fun!" "No, babe I just want to be with you, I'm coming home" Seeing that boy walk in makes everything so much better. We talked, slept a little, and then he got the munchies....so at 4 we adventured to BK! Saturday morning we had another "perfect" day. There has been a topic in my head the last little bit that's been bugging me, I was torn talking to him about it or to just let it go...I kept turning to my phone when I started to think about it. He knew instantly what it was and kissed me on the forehead, hugged me and said everything I needed to hear. I have been so emotional lately, the tears started running. Me turning into a typical girl (which is sooo not me) then got angry. I hated myself for letting this stupid thing get to me. We went out and watched a movie with my roommate (poor girl sees all my moods with him), he whispers "Stop thinking, this is where I want to be. You are who I am with, don't let them get in your head" I ended up showering and just got semi ready and told him he should probably go to the gym. "Are you kicking me out, or calling me fat?" He grabs my stuff, then takes my hand and next thing I knew we were on a drive. He put on one of my favorite songs and my tears came rolling down again (I swear I'm not pregnant!). We went to his parents, he was going to go work out, and I felt I needed some "Target" shopping time...we go on another drive, go pick up take out and go back to his parents, ate, watched a movie, and talked some more. We end up sleeping at his parents...something about feeling like you are in high school again! Sunday morning he went and worked out, I got ready and then we met his parents for breakfast. Oh em gee, it was soooooo good! He loves having me recover because it means he gets my meal too! We went for yet another drive, and got home in time for kickoff! BEST GAME EVER!! I grew up a Niners fan, going to their games (wherever they played) and one of my favorite past times plays for them! We placed bets...and I made him do pushups everytime the dirty birds scored! We had so much fun just hanging out with his parents, and being away from all the drama! He took the first half of work off to watch the game, but then life was so perfect he ended up taking th whole day off! We napped, went for one more drive (if you can't tell we can talk for hours, we have great drives and get some great music in also!), had dinner with his parents, and watched The Biggest Loser. I'm even more emotional with this stupid show! There was a moment where Terry said "Are you crying?" "Secretly lying I replied "HA NO!" "He looks up at me "Mom, Mace and I are the biggest babies we are both crying!" hahaha love my sentimental man! It was so great to spend time with him, and his parents. Monday was my first day back so I eventually made it back home in the wee hours of the night. But I can tell you to spend 5 days straight with him was more than I could have asked for. He's so great to put up with me, and prove to me that we have so much more for the haters to hate on! Thank you baby for always being there!

Recovery

I am overwhelmed with the peace and love I have felt for the last week. Monday morning my amazing father took the day off so he could be the one to take me in for my surgery. We sat there for hours, he distracted me with my childhood stories, playing bike race and flow with me, and the numerous family phone calls checking in on me. I turn to my phone for distraction when I am overthinking, but with every text, FB notie, or insta update I couldn't help but just wonder if a certain one would make an effort to wish me good luck. The nurses/doctors/anesthesist came in frequently to check on me, and then right as the doctor came to get me I got a text from him. My eyes watered instantly, he said exactly what I wanted, and my fears were put away. I remember looking at my dad down the hall and remembering Terry's text and feeling so overwhelmed with that love. That's one of the last things I remember from Monday. I remember getting in my dads truck, texting Terry once I got to my sisters, and Mia patting me on the head saying "We're going to make you better okay?" but that's it. Tuesday came and I was in and out all day. Terry called me on his way to work, slept, took about 7 hours to watch The Bachelor because I kept falling asleep. Tyrone came down when he got off of work, my BFF's family brought me dinner, my dad and Jenae, the BFF, all came down to see me. I slept most of the time while Tyrone and Katie talked and watched movies (bad friend award goes to me for the year!). Wednesday I took it easy, I was still super tired, Terry came over when he got off work, Mia attempted a sleepover and we watched A LOT of TV. Thursday I made an outing to the store with my sis and came home and crashed! I finally gathered all my belongings and made my trip back to my house. I showered and had every intention of just putting on a movie and going to bed early when I got my favorite surprise....Terry! He called and informed me he was already on his way over and we were about to kick our weekend off....

Ahh!

My surgery was postponed until Monday so we braved through storm "Gandolf" and went and enjoyed some sushi at a little bar downtown! Tyrone's sister Jenna joined us, along with the meatheads! Great night to be surrounded by loved ones!

This one...there are no words for!

Love my girl Jacq! Great night of all Brown Pride!

Love these nights, the four of us always get in some good laughs, and memories to last!

This bromance is one of my favorite things!

I could talk with baby boy for hours, and I did! We spent a solid 24 hours together, sleeping, talking, eating, driving, a little TV time, and a lot of cuddling!

We're not perfect, we fight, get jealous, get scared, push away, ask for a lot of forgiveness, but for those 24 hours we got to talk about it all and our life was just perfect!

Scurred

The more that people talk to me about it the more nervous I am...I go in for surgery tomorrow and am sooo scared. I can't wait to feel normal again, and luckily I have the best support system to stand by me through it all! About 5 minutes before this he had called and was pretty moody, I was fighting my tears back and quickly hung up, I didn't even think he was listening to what I said so when I rea this the tears came quickly...

These made my day, thanks "Brodster!"

Wreckage

If I told you this weekend was perfect I'd be lying but it was pretty dang close! Thursday night I went to sushi, and went home to enjoy their company when I received a pleasant surprise...Terry! I felt like I was in a dream, last we talked we weren't over but we needed a break. I made him some dinner, and we called Tyrone over to come watch a movie with us and Jacq. I forget how easy it is to fall asleep in those arms, how he makes my day better with the simplest actions and words! Friday I worked before heading over to babysit Meemers! I got done pretty late and decided to go home and go to bed. (Super lame right?!) I wish I would have slept, instead I was up ALLLLL night, throwing up, couldn't stop and their was nothing left in my body. I almost took myself to the ER (which would be a first for me), but I kept telling myself it was all in my head and to sleep it off. I woke up every twenty minutes, and sweating/shivering every 5 minutes. Safe to say, one of the worst nights EVER! I finally got myself to get a few hours of sleep before I started getting some chores done around the house. My sister and the girls came over to my house to get ready for the JB concert and then my night got turned around. Terry and I had talked earlier that day and we were fine...until I get a phone call from my BFF and a text from him. She found out some stuff he did on New Years and started getting mad at him. We weren't together over New Years so I didn't care but he was pissed. I wish she wouldn't have said anything to him, but I'm also to the point that if he can't talk to me about it but I can't change it. All I can hope for is the best for me is still to come. Anywho I head out to dinner, broken and sick, but remember that my family will ALWAYS be there for me. We get to the ESA and I of course jump at the chance to take a picture with an athlete! Meems was not a fan!

This really happened, best concert!!!

All smiles all night...he is better than I expected!

This is a signature Terry treat...I made them one last time to get them out of my system.

What happens when your closest friends find out you had a breakup? Get everyone together to eat your feelings, and find your rebound! Love my girls!

These boys are the real deal...love them!

We spent the night eating, dancing, being a pimpette (11 boys and me at a table), and a lot of time playing bike race! Thank you friends for being amazing! This is my new jam..Carly Rae opened with it on Saturday and I started crying. Right then and there, my eyes watered and I realized my feelings are real and I need to stand up for myself and what I want for the first time in my life.

NYE

A rockin' NYE

What kind of music are we listening to?

The boys of the night

We're not racial at all!

The couple that everyone wants to become a reality

Just practicing our duck face selfies as we wait for the fireworks

Gone country

We had to much fun with this camera up at the U

Fondue for dinner to start our night

This trio hasn't been together for years...just like old times

Here we go

This week has been a busy, emotional, week so here we go with our best to break it down. Thursday night was the high of my week. I got a pleasant surprise at my door when the boys showed up! Seriously they're the best, they're like my brothers that talk some sense into me. However whether I listen to them or not is another story! After a few hours of entertaining rap battles I kicked them out so I could head over to Terry's. We had our Christmas together, ate cinnamon rolls, had a water drinking contest, all before I crashed on the couch. I know, not much fun but I had pulled an all nighter the night before and was going to get real pissy if I didn't get my beauty sleep. Of course he put me in bed, and got my drink of water so I would have it in the morning, and I didn't remember a thing! Friday morning we just laid in bed, cuddled, watched a movie, he shoveled the driveway, got us breakfast, we did some responsible errands we had to take care of, worked out, and just enjoyed being together. This kid knows how to make a lady happy!

Friday night Tan Man, Taylor, Katie and I went to Longhorn Steakhouse...SOOO GOOD! Saturday I hung out with my friend Zach... my love for this kid is unknown by many. I adore his family, and vice versa, we have a different kind of friendship that is only understood by few but I enjoy the little time we get! We went to Wreck It Ralph with my fam, and the Neilson fam. Nothing is better than all of us together Sunday I finally took down our Christmas decorations before heading to Katies parents. Tyrone came over to join in on the snowman making fun!

Our Mr. Snowman!

Sunday night is when my week had started to fall apart. Terry and I got in a pretty big fight. I got to the point that I was ready to just end it all together but I also need to figure out what is worth fighting for and what's not. He's not done but we also haven't spoken since Sunday... Monday morning I woke up, went to breakfast with the roomies, and headed to Mountain Dell to get some quality sledding/snowboarding time in! Great day to hang out with the fam before going home to get ready for NYE festivities! That post is to come momentarily!